Im torn between two worlds.

Ive made a choice which i know will impact my life in a dramatic way.

I couldn't decide how to spend my time or how to go along with the day and how to just not keep from being bored. So ive decided to spend my days doing what i love, art. All i want lately is to draw and draw and keep drawing. Theres something calming about art, many times when im on the verge of a nervouse breakdown and i find my hand shaking from whatever emotion im about to be over come with i grab my pencil and try and lay something anything down on paper to make me feel better.

Art will never lie to you, it is what it is and theres no changing that. Art doesn't care if your slow or fast are anything it just cares about the results. Thats whats so calming. you can sit for hours drawing nothing but its just an expression of you and your personality. I never grow bored of making things up and creating new places and worlds and ideas. The normal world is so boring so dull so full of hate and mis trust and lies and all that. but The worlds i create are just happiness, i know a warped few from a person who still has the heart of a child but its my relieve from the world somewhere i know cant be corrupt by the all mighty dollar and by fancy new gadgets.

Arts the only thing i have left, and im making sure it doesn't leave me.