Ive always been a thinker.

Ive never been one to "live in the moment" im always thinking. and write now i have nothing left to think about. I dont have a lover, dont have a crush, i dont really have anything right now.
But maybe its better off that way, maybe its better to stay single till you find that one, i just wish there was an easier way, i wish some sign from above would come down and tell you which is the one. But unfortunately you have to search. Now i dont mean to be sexiest but i think its much easier for girls in the whole relationship aspect. The guy is always the one who has to walk with her, or sit with her, or call her, or practically anything. Hell the guy even has to do the asking. you get off easy, all you have to do is sit there and be yourselfs, while the guy has to make you like him 9/10

but thats bullshit statistics i wouldn't know. im not a relationship guy at all.

but when you think about it its really weird. i mean it sucks really to be in the highschool years, were hormones and lust rome the hallways, and they call it a relationship. Now given there are some few at that, that mean something to one another but the rest is just lust. Its a competition to see who can "score" the hottest girl/guy. Which does wonders on people like me's self esteem.

i complain about that enough. but truth is im not really cut out for the whole "boyfriend" thing, i knew that and my point was proven with my last relationship. So im not going to waste my time and do all that again, its pointless. maybe if by some stretch i find the right girl who likes me to. But thats a rarity. To many hot guys no one wants guys like me anymore. and you know its true.